Start of Blaugust

02 Aug, 2025

I wasn’t going to do an introduction blog for this event but I figure laying out my goals for the month via blog wouldn’t be a bad idea. I also hit a roadblock in the draft for the blog I meant to publish today so this is a good way to keep myself productive. Please be patient as I learned about this event just today.

Well, welcome! I’ve been wanting to do community related blogging practices¹ for a bit but haven’t felt like I have enough “content” to do something like that yet. I hope this is a good jumping off point for me. Also, it’s so crazy that it’s August already. It’s been around half a year since I ran away from home and so much has changed within myself and... everything. Realizing how much time has passed also makes me feel very guilty about a multitude of projects but at least I’m getting a blog done today.

As far as goals go, the goals on the index for this blog are a lesser priority but certainly up there. I became a tad disheartened when I somehow managed to push everything towards the left a bit with no clear idea of what was wrong but I did get it fixed, to a point. Now that I am talking about this, I think I will simply go ahead and knock a few things off the list after I publish this. I should probably also make it a goal to figure out how to apply styling to an RSS feed.

Other goals include,

Finish at least one CLEP, ideally two this month.

Learn JavaScript. The main thing stopping me is my own self, honestly. I want to learn it primarily FOR the Christian Webring but the Webring has become so big that I feel a lot of pressure and an immense fear of inadequacy, when that pressure is likely only in my head. I just have to schedule my learning hours, I can do this!

Earn money. I got a job a couple weeks ago and it has been extremely comforting to be able to earn money. 9-5, 15 an hour, and I get paid the day I work. I’m thinking I should work Fridays now, now that I have really gotten into the flow of it. It’s not a hard job but I feel shockingly drained and tired when I get home, such that I don’t want to do much but turn my brain off but I can’t function like that. I have goals and things damnit! Overall, I’m very pleased with how it’s going and with myself.

Get my hair cut. Last goal for the month. I had a bit of a crazy moment earlier last month where I lopped off a whole lot of hair. My hair was probably in the middle of my back? so it wasn’t the longest thing but I have extremely thick hair that behaves like Asian hair, making it hard to handle and unbearable in Texas heat. It also felt like a moment of liberation for me; cutting hair is strangely a spiritual thing for a woman. Hacking away giant chunks of it felt like hacking away parts of myself that I despise and wanted to erase for so long. And now look at me; I have a job and I work hard! Due to how I hacked at it though, it looks.... Not the worst but also not good. I’m hoping I can get it cut by a lady I’ve come to know and greatly appreciate, I would trust her with my hair. Maybe I should make a blog post about how I feel about my hair? That might actually be interesting.

Now that I’ve written this all down, I’m going to write this in my hobonichi as well. Learning discipline is hard but I’m coming around. Getting up early, trying to learn about finances, thinking about ways to make money, what I should save up for, etc. It’s taken me half a year to get here but I’ve come so far overall. Three months of resting from abuse, a month or two of trying to “figure it out,” and something actually happening during the latter weeks of last month and hopefully this month. I feel encouraged, especially whenever I am surrounded by friends. God be with me, I need it.

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